Most of us have been taught to curse our physical symptoms and to get rid of them through surgery or medication or to deny or cope with them. Doing this sends messages to ourselves that say "You're not important." or "This organ or breast isn't needed." We tell ourselves we don't have time to feel, grieve or heal naturally. However, if we can see our first symptoms as inherent messengers, we can learn natural remedies to prevent many of our health-related issues. Our bodies tell the truth. We can learn how our emotions manifest as physical challenges.

Looking in the mirror, I witnessed my own emotional pain as a "physical art form," and as this honest messenger transformed in front of my eyes, I healed from a devastating disease. By age 37 I felt successful in my new clothes, home and car. I was hired when companies needed help in solving complex business problems, and my normal workday averaged 12 to 14 hours.

Then one day it was all over. I was in a specialist's office being diagnosed with rosacea, an incurable, deforming, disfiguring facial skin disease. Treating myself like an infallible machine had caught up with me. The disease had no mercy as it continued to worsen for the next six years. I spent all my financial resources going from medical specialists to naturopathic practitioners, in my heart begging to understand how my immune system could heal and repair.

I concluded that the body is a natural system, so I chose to avoid medications. Fifty doctors later, I was still searching for those same answers. I was determined to prove that the inherent intelligence within me knew how to heal me, after six years I began to doubt my core belief. 

By age 42 my face was a bright, fire engine red, raw and inflamed, and I lanced boils daily. I loss a major part of my eyesight and was no longer able to read or drive. All my dreams of having a good life, leadership, and travel appeared to be over. I realized why people with so much internal pain ended their lives or took up addictions.

In the seventh year I met a Korean doctor who diagnosed me differently from all the others. The disease, he believed, wasn't just on my face. My natural biological rhythms were no longer in harmony, and my face was a direct reflection of my being traumatized from emotional fear and stressed-filled organs. He noticed other symptoms of exhaustion including an internal, uncomfortable quiver and a knot in my stomach, cold hands and feet, varied body temperature, and shallow breathing with chest pains. My body felt lifeless and frail. He said I must find peace within, whatever the price. I hadn't experienced peace or joy for years!

I started emotional therapy, first addressing the fears that had consumed me since my diagnoses, and then going further back into my past. I began to face my work addiction (workaholic: one who works often while physically exhausted and emotionally empty.) Denying stress and personal needs had become a way of life. My false feeling of worthiness and internal need to always be needed had pushed this addiction forward. I had a compulsion to stay busy and numb out, serving out of exhaustion had caused me to feel angry and resentful at my own behavior. I had served others for years at my own expense until my body as my friend stopped me.

After one year of sharing my painful story, crying and releasing my pent-up emotions and work addiction patterns within a safe community, a miracle took place. I healed physically without scars and my eye sight returned to normal. For years I had been on a healthy diet and exercise program that also assisted my body in this transformation. My miracle-healing story became my path. It was natural for me to go into the holistic field and teach people how to heal, prevent physical health challenges, and find greater joy.